Who else needs a How to Guide?
I feel like I need a How-To Guide to this thing called adulting or just life in general. Anyone else? I can't believe that I am the only one who feels this way, but if I am that is fine too. If you have the answers please leave them for me. Or tell me where you got the guide because I need to read it like STAT.
I remember after having Kolby, I had stayed in the hospital for a week (had to have an emergency c-section so wanted that extra time) the minute I was packing up to leave the hospital it hit me. Like, wait a minute, y'all are sending me home, with the baby and what am I supposed to do? Who is going to tell me what to do? Where is the play book for this? And it was such an odd feeling because I wanted a baby REALLY badly, but suddenly it hit me that like, I was going to be the one in charge. Like, I was the person who needed to have the answers. Talk about a deer in headlights moment.
And I am sure that all parents, especially moms feel that way.
Except there are days, lots of days, that I want a How to Guide or a play book to being an adult. Like please tell me how to do all the damn things in the 24 hours that are in a day, while also getting enough sleep and eating and all the things. Like what? How? Cause I refuse to give up sleep. Sorry that is not gonna happen. And I need to do certain things for my mental health. Then I have homeschooling, then recording and prepping for the next school day. Then I like to read, and don't forget about eating, and walking (which is my working out for the year), then dishes and laundry at the very least, then writing and the random crap that pops up from day to day.
I will be 43 in May and I still have not figured this shit out. At all. It feels like the to-do list grows and the energy drains and I am juggling, the balls are in mid-air but I don't know how to juggle. Truthfully I really don't know how to juggle.
But this feeling doesn't just pertain to the to-do list but like: here is a "funny" fact about me. I hate to make appointments for me. Like it stresses me out, I panic. HOWEVER, I have zero issues doing it for Kolby. That's easy. I freeze when it comes to stuff for myself. I can and have advocated for my son with no apologies but if it comes to doing the same for me, I am like, "oh, no that's ok". Like I go from Pitbull to doormat. Where is the How-To guide for that situation??
Like were these life skills taught in High School and I missed the class? Is this something that everyone else excels at and I have just missed the mark?
Or do we need a support group for being an adult? Like a community of people who are like hey I gotcha on that one. Or here is the script on what to say. (Like seriously I NEED this. Introvert problems here!)
When it comes to the day-to-day life things where do you fall? Do you just have you shit together or are you like me looking for the directions that you must have misplaced somewhere? Are you really good at making all the appointments or do you put it off until the last possible moment because you avoid doing things that you don't like doing? Join in the conversation in the comments and let me know!!
Until next time Remember to be kind, smile lots and dance often!!
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